A summary of June

Started reading more often again ever since exams were over.

Time has passed by quickly this month. Just like how my vacation in Aus lasted for merely 5 days D:

Got back my results for Jan 2014’s semester but i ended up feeling sad at the end of the day..just bcos i dont have that particular someone special to share my joy abt my results with. it really is diff as compared to when you have close friends around.

caught Maleficent and Transformers for this month. Maleficent was really touching that my eyes became teary at certain parts of it. true love doesnt really exist, except between sisterly love. similar to the concept of Frozen. so was Maleficent evil? I believe she was good natured till the people she loved and truly cared about disappointed her and turned his back on her. this reflects the ugliness of human nature- how we are consumed by greed and the quest for something greater, more status, wealth, power and recognition drives us to the depths of despair beyond what we can handle. In this case, Prince Stephen’s achievement at what he wanted made him blinded towards even his own daughter and he eventually loses his sanity.Nevertheless the ending was awesome cos Philip and Aurora got together and Maleficent had her beautiful wings back. Yay to the ending of “they live happily ever after”  🙂

As for Transformers, well since it just came out I wouldnt want to spoil the show. It’s a show for people of all ages so regardless of how young or old you are, you should just catch it. New characters acting inside the show really brings up the humour another notch. If only I could have Bumblebee as my own car. It would be super cool! 😀 hahaha okay probably gonna take me a few years to get to the topic of getting a car so…

Last night I had a dream of someone from my recent past. & right now as I’m typing this, I recall having a dayre blog with the memories filled with part of the past journey tgt. so im gonna delete all those entries and revamp my dayre with a fresh new beginning to the 2nd half of 2014.

I’m officially a “full time” part-time undergrad since last friday. After being so comfortable with my full time job at my alma mater, I decided to finish up with my contract and spread my wings to fly. I have vivid memories of my time there as a student, and as an allied educator. It was really hard for me to say goodbye, it’s as if I was left with hobson’s choice that I had to leave, with mixed feelings of emotions and I had to fight back the tears.

I rmb 3 years ago, while I was still a polytechnic student, attending my church service, the Lord gave me a vision of my school. How timely it was! & I ended up working there, which I believe was by divine intervention. Changing the lives of the students, and making an impact on some of my colleagues- this journey was worth it.  With every journey comes sad memories and happy ones. I shall chose to remember the happy ones. Right now, I feel a greater calling towards the social service sector so I’m moving towards that direction. I’m really uncertain of what the future holds for me and it scares me at times but I know that He would provide for me.

Seems as if my summary ended up as a long post. oops. but its okay since my Dayre would have shorter posts/much condensed contents. Thank you for reading! 😀

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When you gave someone your heart and trusted them with it only to have it brokened.. 

DEMI LEVATO’S – REALLY DONT CARE

You wanna play, you wanna stay, you wanna have it all
You started messing with my head until I hit a wall
Maybe I should’ve known, maybe I should’ve known
That you would walk, you would walk out the door, hey!

Said we were done, and met someone and rubbed it in my face
Cut to the part she broke your heart, and then she ran away
I guess you should’ve known, I guess you should’ve known
That I would talk, I would talk

But even if the stars and moon collide
I never want you back into my life
You can take your words and all your lies
Oh oh oh! I really don’t care
Even if the stars and moon collide
I never want you back into my life
You can take your words and all your lies
Oh oh oh! I really don’t care
Oh oh oh! I really don’t care

I can’t believe I ever stayed up writing songs about you
You don’t deserve to know the way I used to think about you
Oh no, not anymore, oh no, not anymore
You had your shot, had your shot, but you let go

Now if we meet out on the street I wont be running scared
I’ll walk right up to you and put one finger in the air
And make you understand, and make you understand
You had your chance, had your chance

But even if the stars and moon collide
I never want you back into my life
You can take your words and all your lies
Oh oh oh! I really don’t care
Even if the stars and moon collide
I never want you back into my life
You can take your words and all your lies
Oh oh oh! I really don’t care
Oh oh oh! I really don’t care

[Cher Lloyd]
Yeah, listen up
Hey, hey never look back
Dumbstruck boy, ego intact
Look boy, why you so mad
Second guess him, but should a hit that
Hey Demi you picked the wrong lover
Should a picked that one, hes cuter than the other
I just wanna laugh, cause you try a be a hipster
Kick him to the curb, take a polaroid picture

But even if the stars and moon collide
I never want you back into my life
You can take your words and all your lies
Oh oh oh! I really don’t care
Even if the stars and moon collide
I never want you back into my life
You can take your words and all your lies
Oh oh oh! I really don’t care
Oh oh oh! I really don’t care

Yeah, last year you said you wanted something that I can’t give. But when I gave it to you, you ended up breaking it instead. You had your chance but you let it go. They say Karma is like a boomerang. not like i really believe in karma but it does happen. there’s no point at cursing and swearing at the past which cant be changed. well yeah im moving forward now… & this will probably be my last blog post related to the past r/s. Auld Lang Syne. 

 

Dont settle for anything less than God’s best

today’s post is about something that really means a lot to me. Sermon in church was about Godly dating. 

In a nutshell, the dating advice which was given:

1. Christ must be the centre of our lives.

2. Treat the other person as your neighbor.

In the bible, one of the ten commandments is to love our neighbours as ourselves. God’s love flows to us so we can go beyond our human capacity to love.

3. We need to be wary of intimacy in dating

(this is extremely important i feel, to know where the boundaries lie as a Christian couple).

4. Do not date a non Christian

(will they strengthen our faith, or will they push God who’s supposed to be the centre of our lives, out of the big picture?)

5. The person has to be committed in helping us fulfill God’s calling in our life

6. Date with the intention to get married

(this should be the utmost goal of a r/s. some people are in it just for the sexual rs that offers them the same pleasure that marriage couples engage in. & this isnt the way God’s people should behave.)

7. Consider your gift of marriage or singlehood in the view of edifiying and blessing the church of God.

(Would it help to build the church community?)

So actually marriage/singleness may be a gift from God, depending on what he has called us to. an advantage of singlehood is that we can grow more Christ like through our relationship with the church. we also would have more time, capacity and energy to focus on our r/s with Christ.

Marriage is not for our own gratification but to spur each other on to be more Christ-like. If we are dating, we should look beyond the physical. Is that person going to help us to become more like Christ? We have to look to the future with Faith. Do we have the eyes of faith to  see how gloriously transformed the person can be through the HS and us?

I’ve made mistakes time after time but this time round, I’m gonna let Him lead me. After all, I’m finding my life partner and it isnt an easy task. Not that I’m finding one right now at the moment because I really dont have the capacity for a r/s now. How can I, when i trusted someone and gave him my heart, only to have it brokened?

Anyway, today’s sermon really resonates with my heart and the tears that have fallen with every heartache. I believe that God has a calling for me- whether its marriage or singlehood, I dont really know but I will thoughtfully pray over it. & He shall reveal His plans in due time.

12.25am right now. & im supposed to be in bed…

I miss Australia. & I certainly long to be back there again. Even stay there for good if I could. I’m serious. 🙂

The people there are so nice and friendly.. & I get enticed by the supermarkets there. really a wide range of food stuffs. even making my cheesecake there would be good! heehee.

sch hols are almost ending soon.. which means im saying goodbye to my alma mater too. 😥 will definitely miss it.

ogay time to sleep now.

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results were out as well. did better than expected and it’s my best results/GPA throughout my entire uni life thus far. Just one more sem to go and I’m hoping to maintain my grades or do even better than this. 😀 All glory and praise be to the Lord!

the breakup happened at the wrong timing. but it certainly made me realise one thing- that I’m stronger than I think I am. 🙂

of course this isnt made possible without God’s grace. & my close friends for always being there for me, cheering me up and showing their  physical support etc. Geraldine, Marvin, Edwin, Aloysius, Shalini, Brandon, Cindy (just to name a few).

 

random thoughts…

im not a social butterfly. but im trying to step out, widen my social network and get to know more people. 

yes im still young, and i should be having fun. however my mindset seems to be older than my current age. sometimes I wonder whether i’ve matured fast because of my upbringing. 😮

at times i feel that my life is so meaningless but when I rmb the ppl around me, who need care and concern; I know I have to be even stronger so that I can be there for them and shine a light into their paths. it’s all about making a difference in their lives isn’t it? 

 

“the future” often pops up in my head. i have backup plans if I do not settle down by a certain age. so what? I can do even more things for Him. Life doesn’t just end when things dont go our way, for His ways are higher than our ways. 

im afraid to fall in love again cos I’m not sure if I’m ready to risk my heart being broken once more. I don’t think my heart is strong enough to take it. not at least for now. so even if I meet someone who may be a potential partner in future, I would not make my feelings open to them. if they were to find someone suitable for them in the meanwhile then I can’t say they wont have my blessings right? I believe that things will happen at God’s timing, if it’s according to His will, His plans and His purpose. Good things are worth the wait so whatever comes my way I will just humbly accept it.