Passion or prestige?

I know I said in the previous post that I’d blog on 22nd, so pardon me for the delay in publishing this post. This will be an ultra long post, please bear with me and read till the end. For those who have been following my blog or reading it every now and then, you’ll probably know that I applied for a scholarship. & I got it.

I was actually offered a job (at a community hospital, serving the elderly as the main client grp) that came together with it. I was happy on the outside to know that I had made it. Why did I say “on the outside”? Because it isn’t easy to get a scholarship, it would look good on a resume, & I would be deemed as smart as my other cousins who were sponsored, had scholarships etc. then I could be proud of myself for achieving this much academic success…big deal since I was only a part-time student and a full-time working adult at the same time right? nahhhhhhhh. (dont be too quick to condemn me).

If I was offered this scholarship 6 mths ago, I’d probably accept it. But now that I’m done with my studies, they would backpay my education for 4 semesters. Then again, does it make sense to be bonded after getting the back pay? What if I regretted this decision? I would be stuck with the job for 2 years and I won’t give my best if I find that I don’t like the job.

While I was waiting for the outcome of the scholarship interview, I did apply for a couple of other jobs that I was interested in (child-related setting). & when I heard from the scholarship job, I was initially happy. But I questioned myself about whether I was ready to work with the elderly. After all, my experience was close to zilch and the main exposure in working with the elderly was from my short stint @ internship. I hesitated in reverting to the HR about the job offer and told her to give me a week (by 21st Jan) to reconsider about whether I can commit to the job before I accept their offer.

Which brings me to my next point.

On the very same day that I was offered the scholarship, one of the child-related jobs (at a public hospital) contacted me to arrange for a job interview on 21st Jan. I knew clearly that I wanted to work with children more than with the elderly, & I had more passion in working with children. I struggled with the issue of Prestige & Incentives vs Passion & Interest. Had to seek opinion from several friends regarding my choice too. Some advised me to take up the scholarship offer since I had already gotten it. Some told me to follow my heart and just go for the child-related job interview first before I made further decisions. It was very clear and obvious to me that I really wanted the public hospital job. so badly that I tried to reschedule the interview to an earlier date just so I could respond to the scholarship offer asap. Unfortunately, the PH was unable to grant me an earlier date so I could only go on the 21st. & it didnt help that they rescheduled my interview for a later timing. I would have less than 3 hours after the interview to revert back to the scholarship offer.

The week leading up to the interview, I kept praying and asking God to speak to me, to show me which path I should go. It was difficult to hear God’s voice when my mind was so flustered. I would constantly ponder over the upcoming job interview. “what if I reject the scholarship offer and this company doesnt offer me a job? I would end up having no jobs at all.” this was a dilemma that bothered me so much I couldnt sleep properly on the day leading to the interview. God reminded me somehow to not be anxious about life, have more faith and trust him. “You of little faith, why are you so afraid?” “may he give you the desire of your heart …may the Lord grant all your requests” are just a couple of the bible verses he revealed to me.

The interview which lasted close to an hour, was one of the longest I’ve ever attended. The main interviewer asked me the standard question of whether I have applied for other jobs. I told her the truth about having a job offer that’s tied in with a scholarship. & she commented it was an attractive offer, passed me her name card and told me to contact her if I decided to accept the scholarship so she’ll know that she’s dropped one potential employee. since they had other interviews to conduct and would take 2-3 weeks to respond to me if I was accepted. I left feeling even more confused than ever. The thought of ending up with neither of the jobs made me worried sick. All I could do was pray and pray and pray on the way home. When I was standing in the bus, a van with many car decals was driving beside my bus. One of the car decals that caught my attention was “Where God guides, He provides” and that was a sign from Him to trust in where He was leading me.

While time was running out, I managed to talk to some of my good friends. Majority of them encouraged me to follow my heart and passion. felt so thankful, blessed & loved to have friends who care so much about me. I was somewhat convinced by my internship supervisor to accept the scholarship offer since I wasn’t certain that I would get the PH job. At that time, it was already 5ish in the evening. so I rang the HR person from the scholarship job. she didn’t pick up. so i tried again 5 minutes later. this time round, the person who answered the phone told me that the HR personnel was on leave. Perhaps God was trying to give me more time to think about the job offer…

10-15 minutes later, as I was about to write an email to the HR lady, the main interviewer from the PH contacted me to enquire about whether I’ve accepted the scholarship, knowing that my deadline was over. when i told her no, she offered me the job immediately and I accepted it! How can it be possible to be offered a job within 3 hours of your interview when the outcome was supposed to be made known only after 2-3 wks? it’s really God’s divine timing and intervention at work that made it possible! Thank God 😀

What would you do if you were in a similar situation as me? Would you go for prestige or your passion? it’s as good as asking you to choose between men’s approval and God’s approval. I think choosing something an area of interest which you are passionate about would be more appropriate as it would be more sustainable over the long-term since you will likely have a higher level of commitment. Prestige would eventually past. In my next blog post, I’ll be sharing some interview tips so stay tuned! Thanks for reading 🙂

Attitude

There’s something on my mind that I wish to blog about. But I shall wait till next Thursday to share more with you guys. In the meanwhile, do be patient and bear with me.

Attitude
[at-i-tood, -tyood]
noun
1.
manner, disposition, feeling, position, etc., with regard to a person or thing; tendency or orientation, especially of the mind:
a negative attitude; group attitudes.
2.
position or posture of the body appropriate to or expressive of an action, emotion, etc.:
a threatening attitude; a relaxed attitude.
[credits to dictionary.reference.com]

I’ve been wondering how some people can be so cheerful and jovial despite the challenges in life. They seem to be smiling most of the time, to the point that it becomes infectious and we catch on their positivism too. There’s something captivating about their attitude and positive outlook, that radiates on the outside and attracts others to them. You’ll agree with me if you find yourself more inclined to befriending them, as compared to those with a bad attitude towards life.

A person with a good attitude would be committed to finishing what they initially started on, whereas a person with a bad attitude would throw in the towel in the face of hardships without thinking of continuing off from where they left.

Our attitudes also determines how far we can go in life. I believe somehow there’s elements of positive psychology and reverse psychology that could alter our attitudes. Instead of thinking of what you cant do, think of what you CAN do. Seeing the best out of every worst possible situation you can think about is perhaps one of the keys to succeeding in tough times. Smiling in the face of your challenges definitely is something you wont be able to bring yourself to do easily. If we feel that we haven’t started off the year on the right note, there’s still time to make amendments. A change in our attitudes could lead to slow but sure changes in certain areas of our lives that has to be put right. It’s never too late to make that change…

I hope that after reading this, you will feel more encouraged to do something different. (:

xoxo,
Jules ❤

wanderlust.

I’m back from my 5D4N trip to Hong Kong. There were disappointments and regrets but I’m glad I managed to count my blessings throughout this dramatic trip with my best friend 🙂

Day 1, we reached the hotel early and left our luggages at the concierge before going to Causeway Bay to explore. It’s quite a distance away from our hotel so travelling took some time. Alighted at the wrong station cos we were too busy talking. Had a difficult time walking from the MTR station to Hello Kitty Secret Garden Cafe and got lost.

Day 2, we went to ocean park in the noon. I personally feel that it’s a waste of money going there if you dont like roller coasters. Didnt manage to seat the upside down ones and a few other rides. But yeah its not too bad going there for the experience. There’s an express train and cable cars inside the attraction. we settled dinner at Neptune restaurant which gave us a splendid view of the marine life. It’s so therapeutic to look at the fish, stingray and shark swimming while you eat. However, it’s pricey so be prepared to spend about $100 and above for 2 pax. we were out for the whole day and reached back the hotel only to find out that my best friend’s luggage was locked. she couldn’t open it up and suspected that the hotel staff meddled with her lock. this is really appalling because we stayed at a 4-star hotel (Metropark Kowloon Hotel) and expected to have better security. Anyway, the manager came into our room at about 1am in the morning with two other guys to help break open the lock.

Day 3, we went to Macau to explore. unfortunately, we left the hotel at a pretty late timing for brunch so we didnt get to explore the places much. by the time we reached Macau it was already 1pm. had a late lunch and the weather was so cold we went shopping for clothes at Venetian Hotel instead. ended our trip with a gondola ride. so we didnt get to explore the ruins of st paul’s, senado square, fisherman’s wharf as it was already 8+ by the time we headed back to Hong Kong.

Day 4, we went shopping at Mongkong area. omgosh totally didnt have time to travel to The Peak via the peak tram, Sky Terrace and Madame Tussauds museum cos lots of time was spent on shopping. Its a waste of time going to ladies market to bargain when Argyle Centre has more affordable stuffs!

Day 5, we didnt sleep the entire night of day 4. packed our luggages and rushed to the airport after checking out at 5+ in the morning. on the way to the airport, I realised my local sim card wasn’t with me. which meant that if I’m back in SG I would have to get a replacement. was so upset at myself for not checking properly before leaving the hotel. when we reached the airport, we nearly couldnt board our flights due to the restrictions for hand carry luggages and were forced to leave behind some of the mango pudding we bought for people. 😦 scrambled to the boarding gate before the flight took off. such a relief… felt so tired I slept for 95% of the journey. and conked out for 9hrs the moment I reached home. The very next day when I was unpacking my luggage, I found my sim card hidden in the zip compartment. Thank God for giving me the wisdom when I was in panic mode.

Travelling is an expensive hobby but I’d love to unleash more of the wanderlust in me. it’s a good way to bond with your friends, it may also be a bad way to lose your friends after the trip when you realise there’s so much difference between both of you. Ultimately, there has to be a compromise and sacrifices made to make sure that the trip is pleasant for all. (:

2015 Resolutions

Happy New Year everyone! 🙂 I hope that it has been a great start to the year for you guys.

After deciding on a few resolutions, I kept my new life resolutions to 3. Having too many may become unattainable. Here’s my resolutions for this year:
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1. I’ve started on blogilates’ 30 days AB challenge as a start. Am intending to do cardio workouts more frequently this year, and also take part in a half marathon (21km). I love food so it will be a challenge for me to lead a healthier lifestyle but I’m gonna try to eat clean at least once a week. I have plans to take up dancing again after being so inactive for soooo long.

2. I did mention before that I have fear of making commitments. It’s somewhat similar to the phrase “dont make promises you cant keep”. This year, I’ll be starting a new career so I hope to be committed in giving it my best, and of course to serve faithfully in my church ministry, doing quiet time regularly and reading the bible in a year etc.

3. One of my love languages in Gary Chapman’s 5 Languages of Love is quality time. As I step into my mid 20s, I hope to be able to spend more time with my family and friends/boyfriend if I get into a relationship. This would require work-life balance and proper time management.

The 4th resolution on my list is to become a better person in terms of personal growth inwardly, and externally. A better friend, sister, daughter, best friend, worker, girlfriend. Somehow, I find that this resolution is interrelated to the other 3 on my list so I shall just stick with the 3 above and the 4th would be fulfilled as a result of the other 3. Yay! (:

Have you made some resolutions for 2015 yet? May this be the best year for you yet & one that is fun filled with excitement. (: